Kelly Rizzo has always wished she had written down what those first weeks felt like after losing Bob Saget. On Wednesday, she discovered she had.
The TV host and content creator shared the moment on her “Comfort Food” podcast, holding up a thick white notebook she had tucked away and completely forgotten. Inside were entries from less than a month after the “Full House” star’s passing in January 2022.
Getty“I found my grief journal. I had no idea that I even did this because I wrote in this less than a month after Bob passed away. And to be honest, I was still in such a fog that I didn’t even remember writing in this,” Rizzo said.
“I looked and I was like, ‘Oh, wow. A grief journal. Wish I would have written in that at the time.'”
‘To My Surprise There’s Writing in This’: Kelly Rizzo on Finding Her Grief Journal
Rizzo had long felt frustrated with herself for not keeping a record of the months following Saget’s passing.
Journaling, she explained, had never come naturally to her. “It’s just never been my thing. I kind of feel like a fraud when I’m doing it because it’s just so not me, that it always feels so forced,” she said.
So when she picked up a thick white notebook she had tucked away, she expected to find nothing inside.
Getty“I came across this just expecting it to be blank. And to my surprise, I mean, it’s 95 percent blank, but to my surprise, I’m like, ‘Wait, there’s writing in this?'” Rizzo said.
What she found inside stopped her cold.
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GettyThe entries covered a range of emotions. Some were tender, like the pet names she and Saget had for each other. Some were unexpectedly specific, like her writing that she “loved the sound of him chewing and gnawing on a bone.” And some were simply painful, like the realization that no one would be “coming home” to all of his clothes and belongings.
But one entry hit the hardest of all. It documented their final day together before Saget boarded a plane to Florida, where he would suffer a fatal fall in his Orlando hotel room.
“I didn’t remember this until I just saw this,” Rizzo said. “‘We watched Tick, Tick… Boom! together. We raved about how amazing Andrew Garfield was. We ate Sugarfish.’ And then I said, ‘I told him how much I loved him, but we didn’t kiss.'”
She paused before continuing.
“I wish so badly we would have because he was just getting over COVID,” she said, explaining that she had not wanted to risk getting him sick.
“So, we didn’t give each other a goodbye kiss, which makes me very sad now. But now, at least I remember what our last memory was.”
Kelly Rizzo on Grief, Healing and the Hope She Has for Others
Rizzo has spoken about her grief journey before.
Nearly a year after Saget’s passing, she opened up about grief in an emotional interview with Today. She shared that “the missing him and the being sad about it doesn’t go away.”
But she found comfort in how her feelings had shifted over time. “The grief now has really morphed into just this tremendous gratitude for the time that we had together,” she said.
Wednesday’s episode of “Comfort Food” carried that same spirit.
Rizzo expressed her hope that sharing these memories openly, the joyful ones and the painful ones alike, “can help anyone else who’s grieving, anyone else who’s processing, anyone else who wants to see the distance that you can come.”
